| Life and the caracters in it. |
[Dec. 4th, 2008|10:49 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Built To Spill - Cortez The Killer (Neil Young Cover) | ] |
Wow, i just went back and read my intire history of posts.
It was depressing in a way, I luaghed allot. Depressing because I used to be a much more interesting and fun loving person. And you can tell by the posts toward the end that I was slipping away. I really regret allot of choices I made Directly after I stopped making posts. I made allot of mistakes I ought to have learnt from.
On a better note, Im moving to Australia in a few weeks. I think it will be a great new begining for me. And Im really looking foward to being able to relax and become a whole new person that people feel they can depend on and trust with kindness. |
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| Swordie |
[Jul. 18th, 2008|09:15 pm] |
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| | awake | ] |
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| | Podject runway in the backround. | ] |
This a sword I made in the workshop yesterday. The blade is made of high tensile steel. I found a huge piece in the scrap. It was a used loader bucket wear plate that had been worn to a point were the edge of the blade is. The steel is extreamly strong and hard. and once sharpened can be hardened with heat and then quenched. This can only be done were the carbon content is higher than.03
Although completely unpractical, it is more ornamental than anything. |
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| Life moves in circles and finds its ways to play its games. |
[Sep. 6th, 2006|01:25 am] |
So much has happened and most of it bad. ready to go to nationals and yet ive managed to dislocate my shoulder and pop out three ribs and a disk. Rarrr. Doesnt look asthough ile be making it after all. Good news is I got some of my art into galleries, See them pictured? hopefully. Catcha later any way. short and swweeeeet eh!
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| Everything you never knew you wanted to know! |
[Jun. 12th, 2006|07:22 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | laundry | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  onions me? | ] |
| [ | music |
| | squeeking breaks and gentle hum | ] |
Its been sooooooooo, long since i updated, Sorry guys! And theres been so so much happening here in the cold dark dank world of Rikki. My New best friend jess has come down and were loving it. Shes so cool. Apart from girl troubles I havent been to darn bad. A lifestyle of drugs alcohol sex and debouched partying has taken the place of my once dull egsistance. And im loving it. I party every weekend all weekend apart from sunday wich is art club ( glorified group of friends who do art on sundays blahhhh) and thursdays wich is book club ( same again except with books). Ive been getting more into my my music of late to, new favourites are Tool, electric six, pluto, everclear, hot hot heat, and ofcoarse much much more. A new bar is opening soon REVOLVER wich i have taken part in creating and there having some really freakin tweakin local bands turning up such as, 48 may, elmenop, and steriogram. I cant wait, also dimmer and a few of my other faves at a later date. Cant wait.
Im really going to make an effort to update more soon. And during my holidays ile be sure to keep u informed. |
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| Sin is the peach that grows from within. |
[Apr. 13th, 2006|04:23 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | Feathers | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Its a fucking laundry mat | ] |
Well Well, back again doin laundry. And finding time to update. Last weekend I was in my first car crash, yes I was a virgin! Lucky for me they broke me in easy and there was only mild whiplash and a bruised ego of the driver (not me). I also won the compitition I was speaking about last time and now ile be heading to the nationals as the otago and southland champion. I also won $500.00 In vouchers and shit. If I win the nationals I get to go to Japan and copete in the worlds. They somtimes have upto $100,000 in prize money woop woop! I was also in the paper for my achievment.
I have met a new group of friends in invercargil and havin great fun mucking around over there.
This weekend I will be going on a roadtrip with leo and melissa. We will be pretty much travelling over the whole country.
Yay for easter, Oooh yeah I also got a payrise from my boss. Im now on $17.50 and will be getting another in about a week upto 18.50 then once im fully qualified I will be getting about 25 an hour woop woop.
Leo was so sick on the weekend cause hes an alcoholic and shit.
Well I think thats all for now. Will update later. |
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| The milkyway isn't as tasty as it sounds. |
[Mar. 30th, 2006|07:31 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Wash house | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  O.K I guess | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Hot Hot Heat | ] |
Its been a long time since I last updated, mostly because of my breakup with caroline. But also because I have been going thru some thick shit. I Recently went to the mental health clinic and they have started medicating me. At first I was worse off as they seemed to want to pry into my childhood allot. But now things are better. I have to thank caroline for that, She was the one who advised me to go in the first place even after all the shit I put her through. Caroline is a genuine good person.
I havent done anymore art in a long time, but I have writen allot of poetry. I will post some soon as the launderette I use has the internet.
This weekend I am competing in a welding compitition and hope to win. I came 2nd the year before last and I have a real shot at getting to the nationals.
I am also in the prosses of finishing my degree in engineering which I am looking foward to.
My best friends sister is coming down to live and it will be cramped in our tiny flat/cabin.
So yeah . Cant say I was suprised no one commented during my absence. But hopefully with the medication I will be a more likable person.
Has been a hard couple of months, but things are starting to turn around. No more reoccuring nightmares or delusions recently so thats a plus+
Would really like some feedback? |
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| Life and its evil friends. |
[Feb. 19th, 2006|12:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  ................ | ] |
| [ | music |
| | ............... | ] |
Life is hollow and without meaning, But those polyester smiles you seem to keep them gleaming.
Searching for the front desk looking in the back. Just to give this life a boost I am seriously considering crack.
Aimlessly lurching down the corridoor of life banging into my metophoric walls. To tired to care and to lonley to stop, Ile keep on staggering or at least until I drop.
Is there anything behind these doors, Are there any lives behind these walls? I want to be closer but this invisable depression keeps me at bay. I know its not me thats keeping them away.
Dont know how to explain the way I feel right now. Like I cant get close enough to people to satisfy somthing inside me that is burning with lonelyness, no matter how close we get. |
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| There is no need for a tittle here. |
[Feb. 11th, 2006|07:45 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Spawn of bealzibub | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Reformated | ] |
Woah, Im so sore and tired. Ive been up the mountain for about a week and a half. Good fun tho. We have only done about 300-400 metres. And that was the easy stuff. We will probably have to do some blasting. So that should be fun. Its crazy up there, The other day I found some money on the ground and then some more and more and more. Aparently you can find all sorts of crazy stuff up there left from the skier and snowboarders. Hotel keys, oakleys, cell phones, wallets, money, car keys, all sorts.
The kea's (alpine parrot) have been hangin around. Hopefully they dont come over because they will rip anything shiney appart.
I just hope we dont get stuck up there in the winter, its cold enough now.
Havent been able to do a hell of allot on the computer as it shat itself and it has just been reformatted and its stuck on big screen, grrrrraaaaarrrr.
Well thats all for today, will see you later. |
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| Dead decaying apples in hell. |
[Feb. 4th, 2006|06:22 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | wimble | ] |
Really fucked off with this computer! This is the third time ive tried to update, feel like I could slam somone in the head with an axe.
Anyway, havent been up to a hell of allot lately. But ive decided to post a couple of these pics finally.
I like it how this is sort of cartoonized, cartoonized, cartoonized, I like that, I might use it again.
O.k because I love you im going to improv a poem.
Like a single leaf dances in the wind, I will find my settling place alone.
The wind turns me in cirles back onto myself, to find a lonely throne.
The summer breaze wispers me my tune, and I follow my feet like a million men before.
O.k bye now. Everyone loves somone for somthing. |
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| The world is a vampire. |
[Feb. 1st, 2006|07:00 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Barely awake. Bit ill. | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Built to Spill - Modest Mouse, Rentals | ] |
Shivers, its been Awile since Ive updated. Not that nothings been happening but rather I cant be bothered writing about the meanial and mundane details of my vanila lifestyle.
Things that ive done since my last post.
Shaved my head.
Had a fight.
Went to mates birthday kegger.
Downloaded a shitload of mp3's.
Layed on the floor of the video store until closing.
Worked on the weekend in 40+ degrees c
Spent two hours calling around New Zealand finding a uni that does material sciences/metalurgy.
Fell in love with an acorn.
Seen King Kong, and Chronicles of Narnia. (love NZ films)
And yeah and stuff aye!
I will be going upto Remarkables ski field on thursday were we will begin welding 2.1 k of pipeline up the mountain. Its isolated extream weather conditions and fucking amazing views.
We will be going to the cicus soon also. |
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| Life is like a steak, because it just is so get over it! |
[Jan. 24th, 2006|07:22 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Fuck | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Fuck | ] |
I wrote a big post but as I finished my finger brushed the esc button. Fuck shit you fucking whore ass rapist mother fucking fuck whole. Fuck the fucking fuckers fucking fuck fuck fuck. Im not happy, not even after that. FUCK! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 14th, 2006|11:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  creative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Mars volta all of it | ] |
Got my tattoo today, was so stoked! Caroline got hers to. I stayed and held her hand wile she got her's, Her pupils were like POW! when he went close to the nerves. Getting the first few lines is the best feeling ever, your body gives you a massive adrenilin hit, woooooh yeah.
Anyway Carolines looks really wikid so vibrant. Well heres a pic of my tattoo.
Today I also bought myself the mars volta album and kings of leon, oh and the daft punk cd, wikid, love technologic and robot rock, fuck there all good. |
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| TATTTTTTTTTOOOOOOOOOOOOOO yah |
[Jan. 12th, 2006|09:01 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | extasy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | system of a down sugar | ] |
Me and caroline are going to get our tattoo's done on saturday, she will have to go to work wile im getting mine done, but im gunna stay with her to make sure she doesnt flake out, hehe.
Im actually looking foward to the whole process.
This is what im gettin.
On my left forearm. Im busting.
Oh and the other day I won $800.00 on the pokies.
Im already designing my next tattoo. |
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| A semi detailed series of events depicted by the primary self. |
[Jan. 3rd, 2006|12:01 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crackly | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Slight humming sounds | ] |
Well it started when work finished. To round things off everyone from the workshop including Nigel the boss went out for lunch, unfortunately he has a broken leg and was doped up on morphine and codeine. We couldn’t make much sense of him but he seemed to be very angry with me because I didn’t know what he was talking about. Oh well, I got sick of that pretty quickly and decided to grab some last minute cards and bladi blah for Christmas instead.
Soon enough it was Christmas day and we bounced out of bed and ripped open our Christmas pressies, the lounge looked like a bad version of a capsized Chinese junk boat. And later my brother Leo and his girlfriend Melanie came over and we exchanged gifts, We ended up having a bbq together with shitloads of chocolate and candy dessert pudding cake and goodies. We went out later and used Leos new gun and Caroline’s new composite Bow.
Boxing day was the day I drove over to see mum and give her the pressies we had gathered for her. I ended up getting there to find that she had yet another boyfriend. Which really pissed me off for some reason. So I ended up going off shortly after to see some people I knew at the Rodeo that was on only a hour or so away. That was pretty cool, first rodeo ive been to ever.
I did get the crap beaten out of me by some random crazy drunk guy, but well.
Soon after that crap ended, and I was back home with Caroline we went to Invercargil and went shopping for the day. We also went to the gardens and the animal park to look at kangaroos and bunnies. We also went to the aviary and inside the tropical green house. Caroline got some wikid shoes.
Soon after we got back, I was getting ready to go camping with Leo.
I rustled up a few things and boosted over to Leos place and got his arse into gear, soon we were off and up to Moke lake, which is an isolated lake deep in the heart of the mountains. We arrived around 9.30 and quickly put our tent up before it got dark. Basically the highlights were cutting down trees with a samurai sword, boiling eggs in a tin can of coca cola, and tramping up a river deep into the mountains where we tracked some wild goats for awhile. Oh and whittling some utensils.
New years, Wow. Don’t know were to start. or end for that matter. Basically me and Caroline went out, watched the fireworks, had a few herbal highs, went ballistic for the next 10 hours and then slept on Caroline’s works floor until she had to open at eleven then I got a taxi home. We didn’t stop dancing until six in the morning, we have been recovering for the past 2 days. ugh.
Looking forward to more crazy antics. But work starts in a few day. I mean tomorrow. |
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| Subject? |
[Dec. 31st, 2005|01:23 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Burning in hell. | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Silence | ] |
Well now. Were do I start..... Um........Stuffit ile update later. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 25th, 2005|11:38 pm] |
Well I have 30 minutes of christmas left. All in all I think that the whole things a bit overated, I mean I didnt even know that Jesus guy.
But getting pressies for every one was pretty fun. I got Caroline a Banshee composite bow and arrows, my brother a slug gun wich smashes bottles from about 20 metres (found out today). And various nick nacks for everyone else, oh and a dvd player for dad. Didnt get anything from him again this year. Cant say I was suprised since he didnt get me anything for my birthday for the last few years or six.
But on a brighter note, I got a new pioneer car sterio and speakers from leo. I was really suprised with that. And I got heaps of cool stuff from caroline. Including a back masager with remote and a 12 volt adapter for the car, A dungeons and dragons board game, And tons of other cool stuff. By the way I love D&D, I dont care how geeky or nerdy you all think it is. Its fuckin cool so go off and wank in a corner somwhere wile saying your abc's backwards if you dont agree.
Oh yeah, MERRY MOTHER FUCKING CHRISTMAS to everyone who is still in the other time zone. hhhmmm....In which 24 of 48 hours was jesus born then? |
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| And on the second day God made it rain down upon the earth. |
[Dec. 20th, 2005|11:12 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | +1 | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Six-Seven Times 4:39 Flunk | ] |
Today was insane. It was drizzling all day today. We were working on a roof top of one of those high rise hotels when lightning started to strike all around the town. It was absolutely spectacular.
Then after it had finished a torrential downpour started. I mean this was the most water I have ever seen fall from the sky. Within seconds me and my co worker Rob were absolutely soaked, I mean even my pockets were full of water.
The town flooded in a matter of minutes and the fire trucks had to come and pump the streets dry.
I love the rain. It makes you feel free. |
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| Satan is my bitch |
[Dec. 20th, 2005|06:12 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Teetering on insane.TEETERING! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | More roswell mussled tones in the background. | ] |
I dont usually post these sort of things. But this one suprised even me.
You are The Devil
Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession
The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.
Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out. |
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| Slap my shimmy stick in your rag hole. |
[Dec. 8th, 2005|10:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  slim | ] |
| [ | music |
| | ok go | ] |
Wow this new slug gun is freakin wikid. I just ripped the twig off a tree from 20 metres away (was actually aiming for a bird sitting on the twig) thats some good shit. Only bad thing is that my scope doesnt work on it as the dove tail is as crooked as a dogs hind leg.
Other shit thats been happening well um? I keep having this reoccuring dream were ile be walking up stairs and all of a sudden I start falling backwards into a black abyss, then i freakin panic and wake myself up when my arms and legs jerk in my sleep. This happend four times directly in a row one night.
I got pissed of and just got up and layed on the floor in the lounge.
Been having the worst insomnia. Slept about 20 hours last week if that.
What else?
Oh my boss tells me if I hurry up and finish my degree I will be getting fuckloads and fuckloads of money. Not in those exsact words, I think he said shitloads?
Ive pretty much done all my christmas shopping. And yeah
I always get depressed over christmas.
Fuck you fat man! And im going to report you for illegally forcing labor on an endangered species. |
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